First of all, let me say that I’ve heard of this forum through KitBoga, which has made me aware that there are people that care about this stuff (such as here if I have to believe him).
In a month, I’m going to be starting college for the first year and meeting a lot of new people.
However, I’m kinda fearing meeting them, especially introducing myself to them.
For the past few years, I feel like I have never really had any friends. Only some contacts during school. Whenever I enjoy doing something, I do it by myself or with my family.
I’m scared to like things, and to tell others I like those things. When meeting new people, that I know I’m going to be with for multiple years (college for example), I’m scared of telling them my hobbies, and games I like for example. I’m fearing that they think I’m weird, and that I’ll be lonely for the upcoming years again.
In the last few years I have felt myself more and more to only liking things other people like, at least when I’m with them. For example, if I want to play a video game I enjoy, I always put my profile to offline so others can’t see what I’m playing. However if someone else plays that game too, I’m no longer afraid and will keep my profile online.
I’m even scared to share my online accounts with other people, in fear that people I know find them and make fun of me (I spent the last years hiding most of them).
Does anyone here have any advice for me?