I thought I could but everything went to bills. It be cool to meet the band but I just really wanted to go to learn whatever it is with mental health.
I’ve been fighting so long with myself just barely having the strength to keep pushing forward. I fought and I fought and im just so exhausted… even got into drugs 3 years ago because the people I had called family in my life that showed love and support to me pushed me away I have love over my own blood.
I experimented drugs, just to to find a temporary peace and balance. Theres nothing more than I crave to find peace so I can stop feeling so numb everyday. I stopped taking drugs not just because of the job I’ve seen what it does to people.
I feel like I walk on a tight rope that never ends. And I’m so suicidal and I’ve never been that way. So much has been bottled up and I just can’t find peace, I can’t. I need peace I want peace ill go the extra mile to look for it.
But I cant… I just want to die I give up on this im hanging on for dear life. It feels like a noose around my neck every day… it’s gonna be ok solves nothing.
It’s so hard to breathe honestly.