If I have one word to describe how I feel right now, it’s exhausted. Mentally, physically, emotionally. I put a lot of effort into Christmas this year since I wanted to really see and feel the growth I’ve had for the past year. I really put together a whole outfit for our green-themed party, and I also used to be really into makeup so I put a lot of effort into doing that again. I felt extra, but beautiful. I’m looking forward to putting together a different look for our New Year’s day dinner. Other than that, the shopping, preparation and being social has really tired me out.
I’m trying to catch a break right now, but my sleep schedule has been messed up again I also have to move furniture out my room and get rid of a lot of things because I’m getting a bedroom “makeover”. I’ve had this loft bed for YEARS now and I’m tired of how much space it takes, how it basically casts a shadow over my whole room, and how inconvenient it is to go up and down its stairs (which double as drawers which seems cool until you forget how much garbage you have LOL). It’s been great throwing away trash and separating things I can donate and I’m very much looking forward to my new room.
I wish I can work on my art more. Through the encouragement of my friends, I was able to start my art page on instagram, but I feel the pressure to post. I wish more people saw it, too. It’s really disheartening when my friends don’t like my drawings but share others’ works. I have a lot of ideas too but it takes so much time. I put so much pressure on myself to practice because if I want to be an artist for a living, I wanna be good enough to draw enough things regularly and put together compositions. I know quality is far better than quantity but I just wish I had more room for art. I love getting buried in a project. I’m currently chipping away at my third ever digital painting. It’s really fun! But I want to get back to some traditional art to practice drawing things I haven’t drawn before.
I hope I get my room finished soon so I can finally get back into my art.