I need help, im not sure what to do I want to talk about the things there’s so much, but the major things. I’m jobless, I might be evicted next month or the month after it would be a first time in my life but my job screwed me over and I did so much for them. They let me go
I’m struggling so much because I won’t be able to pay rent this month for November, I struggle that I really want to live and I keep repeating this over and over because nothing gets any better in this life for me at least. I’m honest and too open about this. I can’t deal with the horrible luck I have ita been years
I use to live with a pastor he took me from a broken home when I had turned 18 before im 25 now, and by the time I was 21 I couldn’t live with them and I ended up with the wrong people and resorted to drinking and drugs
To this day thats all I think I want to do because I am so fed up with this life, being neglected and abused since I could remember as a kid, til I was 18 there was a glimpse of hope and freedom even peace but when I left that place if comfort and love living with a pastor I just felt so devastated, and awful memories that haunt me to this day which makes me feel like I really just want to end my life but
I always try to see the bigger picture will it ever get better it has to be, I keep trying to believe this but it’s rock bottom for the past 4 years. There so much hurt and pain I hold onto that I carry so much burdens everyday and I feel so alone. I feel like I’ve completely lost it.
I need help and I’m not sure how to seek it