A lot of people have been asking me why don’t I have a girlfriend? why am I not married? etc etc well I have my reasons why because of my past I cannot fully trust women again I don’t know when I will be able to. I feel the only female I love even though she isn’t real is Miaka Yuki of Fushigi Yugi. Its not a sexual attraction its a platonic friendship I have with her and I feel she lifts me up. I recently bought a plush of her and I am so happy she gives me joy and comfort.
I think if having something that brings you comfort right now is what helps you, then it’s great that you’ve found something that allows you a sort of joy and peace. Hopefully one day you’ll be able to rekindle that trust.
Just remember, we have to take chances sometimes in order to achieve things. Love can be one of those things. Opening ourselves and taking that risk.
Of course work on you first. Always a good thing.