I’m single for about 7 years and which was only true relationship I have had. However I did not have strong enough feeling for her. So had let go, but I was never able find another girlfriend. I had a few friends are girl, but end of leaving my life. I was not the best guy toward them and I’m not the most stable person. I did go on a couple tinder date 4 ago, but they went no where. I never had sex with a girl and I’m going be 30 in December ( not saying that most important thing)
However, I feel I’m too unstable, non good looking for any girl. Unfortunately girls that do like, I have no feelings which make me feel worse.
There is one girl I’m been trying to talk to lately and we even up for lunch. She had to leave early, however she did say she wanted to hang out and just go to shows. Then this outbreak happen and we have not met up. We text , but really big conversation. It suck I get really impulse , paranoid and anxious. Sometime I just want to tell her to screw off and just never try to talk to her. I feel get a lot intense emotions for these situations. In all I get screw over and lie too.
I do like her a lot, we listen to same music and she really cute, and she seem really nice. It just cool just be friends or whatever. I can’t help my paranoid and my fears.