hello i’m newer here and i found this through a comment in my book and i’ve been going through so much that i’d give it a try. anyway the past few months my friends have been ignoring me and only really talking to me when they need something.
so of course that makes me feel like i’m being used and they’re being friends with me out of pity.
but there’s just so much bad stuff going on in my life that i haven’t been feeling like myself and that there’s no way out except to end it.
today i cried so much because every thought was going on at once. i was overwhelmed and tired that i got really close to relapsing but, thankfully, i didn’t so i’m still 4 months clean.
this is a very big step for me as i’m not one for talking about my feelings to others so i’m very scared about actually putting this up.