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Its my fault everything ends up my fault

Not everything ends up at this point , not yesterday or the day before. It just sucks it had to be today . Today didn’t need to be “that day”. I’ve always been able to help others give them advice and i’m pretty much thankful i’m here for others that struggle too. It just sucks that i feel like what ever i do that turns upside down or bites me in the rear end makes me feel like its my fault. Do i want to die? no. do i want to harm myself? not really. It sucks when i have to put the blame on myself when others know this isn’t my fault but when i truly do know its my fault. This part that i’m about to write is gonna hurt me the most because i believe that what is going to be said is my fault. So i have 2 pets of my own that are males (rabbits). I didn’t go to bed till almost 4 am last night cause i was rearranging there area because it was in the way of my walk space . so i did and i said to my self “oh they will be fine nothings going to happen i believe.” i sprung out of bed to see the “aftermath”. it wasn’t till i checked the other one i had to wake my mom up and say “satin is bleeding” . I now have to check in on him every so often to see if hes going to be okay (which i know he will be , because hes a fighter). I just feel like i should of prevented this from happening . Why does it have to be me ? Why does this have to be my fault. Why do i have to hate myself. Why do i have to be like this. I feel like this is gonna bite me in the butt because it happened once and i’m afraid of it happening again. I don’t know what else to feel. My worst nightmare came true.

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I’m sorry an accident happened while trying to work on their area. But it’s just that. AN ACCIDENT. It could happen to anyone, you know? Don’t beat yourself up too hard my sweet friend. :heart:
I hope your bunny gets feeling better soon. Learning experience yea?
Love you friend. You didn’t mean to hurt or cause your rabbit harm. Just love him and check on him. It’s the best thing you can do. Forgive yourself. It is okay to do that. :heart:

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Gosh it sounds like you’re feeling some intense guilt over this. I’ve done some things I still cringe at to this day. I can resonate with your pain and self-degrading thoughts.

I just want to add a little of my perspective on top of what DearKoyangi already shared. I think you caring for and being concerned with others is virtuous, I admire this perspective you have of taking some responsibility in what happened to your pet. However I don’t think you’re being fair to yourself or to your potential. I worry that you judging yourself so harshly will paralyze you from applying yourself fully which involves taking appropriate risks. We all make poor decisions, I’ve made some incredibly hurtful ones. But what about reframing this from disliking yourself to seeing yourself as a fallible human, just like the rest of the world. We need more caring people like you in the world, but if you fully apply yourself and do your best, I believe it’s impossible to not make more mistakes like this in the future. It sucks, it’s painful, but it’s human and you’re an okay person. I don’t look at you as any lesser for this mistake, in fact maybe even with more respect for caring and taking responsibility. You seem like a likable, caring person, and I hope you can see that in yourself and stop the self-hate.

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@DearKoyangi and @xTimeRemains
thanks for your repsonces to this post. It sucks when it happens but i guess it is what it is . i still kinda feel down about what happened … imma try to take it day by day.
thank you !

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Sounds like you’re much more at peace now, even though still hurting. I’m very glad :slight_smile: thanks for sharing!

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@all_around_ashley

You will get better. Let us (HeartSupport) know about if anything comes up. We love you.

thanks @AVJR it still kinda wreck me today that it happened . i just dont know how to feel about this . cause in my mind i want to do something about it but then the intuition kicks in and makes me feel like " will this turn to crap if it happens again." just these negative thoughts man.

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Sadly, Ashley, what happened, happened… But what can help you and your rabbit feel better is you being his main support right now! I’m sure he doesn’t blame you and you shouldn’t either. Accidents happen all the time.

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How long have you had these rabbits?

ive had oreo for a year , and i have satin for about 3 moths