What’s wrong with me?
okay well usually i wouldn’t do something like this something as in complain or rant… but im so stressed. So lately i’ve been seeing skinny girls they have skinny thighs, flat stomachs, bony faces , skinny fingers and it’s everywhere, it’s also what i wanna be like but it’s so hard. i’m not that old im actually really young… last year my weight would never matter to me but now it feels so important. working out dosent seem to help out so i try to stop eating so much sometimes only eat one meal for the day, i know that’s unhealthy but my thighs are fat my stomach is bloated which other people dont see? i should be happy that other think im pretty but i don’t wanna be like how i am. i wanna be more skinny i guess im pretty average but it’s not good enough! if only i could lose a few pounds.
life would be better but it wont work. i don’t know what i should do… at this point i just try not to eat a lot even when my stomach growls at me. there isn’t any results i feel so ugly. i wish that i was like how i used to be, skinnier and actually liking myself. i don’t know when this became such a big deal to me, i don’t wanna obsess over my weight for the rest of my life. ugh i don’t know i probably sound stupid. i just want someone to talk to me about it…
I cant take it anymore i just wanna punch myself. ): i’ll probably end up deleting this soon… so yeah