I’ve been gone from the forum for awhile and I do sincerely apologise for that. I’ve been trying to bury my problems and ignore them. It’s not working at the moment. I feel as tho all the distractions I’ve surrounded myself with have done nothing but make my problems come all at once. Now I feel as if there is a void in my chest that nothing will fill. I was hanging out with some friends tonight that are a couple and I couldn’t help but envy what they have for each other. They complete one another and here I sit alone, sleep alone, eat alone when I do eat. I do everything alone for the most part and it’s starting to bother me. I know what’s missing but I can’t seem to fix it. I fix everything it’s just what I do but I can’t fix me, I know people try to say I’m not broken but I can feel it. I can’t even focus on work anymore. I’m losing weight again because I forget to eat or I just don’t like cooking for 1. I got hurt the other day and just didn’t care how bad my leg and back hurt from it. I honestly just don’t know what to do or think or feel right now other than empty.
If you’ve made it this far in reading this I want to thank you for you time and thoughts. Nobody needs to respond I just needed to get it down somewhere and out of my head.
Stay strong everyone, love you