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Just pregnancy thoughts

Hi everybody.

I think the last update I gave was about how I was stressing over all the things and not being able to sleep. That was subsided greatly since I posted. I think its helping that my husband is kind of wanting to now get all the stuff we don’t have yet and it’s more of a tag team thing where we’re both more on the same page - I don’t think either of us are that stressed but we both are ready to get all the last minute stuff taken care of and it’s nice.

My OB recently doubled my heartburn meds as I was having the most horrible heartburn imaginable for a few weeks. It helped a lot for about a week and then I started getting pretty nauseous again. I think part of it might be the morning sickness which never really totally went away for me, but I ended up taking a half dose of my heartburn meds this morning which made the nausea more tolerable.

Which is a great Segway into my current anxieties.

I recently had the standard 1 hour gestational diabetes test which I failed (apparently it’s really easy to fail the 1 hour test, especially if, like me, you don’t fast because the doc said you didn’t have to). This means, on Monday, I have to take the dread 3 hour glucose test. Basically, I have to fast from my last meal on Sunday until (assuming I don’t throw up on Monday) about noon Monday.

With my history of ulcers I can’t lay down within 2 hours of eating (which I’ve pushed to at least 2.5 hours since digestion is slower during pregnancy) otherwise I get agonizing stomach pain, so I will be fasting for approximately 16 hours before I take the test the next morning. The test takes 4 hours generally - I get my blood drawn to see what my fasting blood sugar levels are, and then I have to drink a super sugary drink in 5 mins (which is also super hard with my ulcers and I’ll be surprised if I can even do this part). After the drink, I need to get my blood drawn every hour on the hour, 3 times. By the time it’s all said and done, I will have gone around 20 hours without eating… usually I have pretty aggressive nausea in the morning until I eat so I’ve pretty much convinced myself that I am probably going to fail. Not because of my sugar levels, but because I don’t think I’ll make it that long fasting without throwing up, which is an automatic fail.

My doctors said I can take dramamine before I take the test which I think will be my only salvation, assuming it works. I’m trying to decide if I should wake myself up before midnight and eat a snack so that I can cut a handful of hours off the amount of time I’ll be fasting, it will just be a trade off for a lot less sleep, which also contributes to nausea so I don’t know which would be worse. Just a lot of uncertainty and dread on that front.

I guess in the plus side I don’t have pre-eclampsia which the doctors have been worried about because I have chronic hypertension.

As for the progress part of this, aside from no longer being so worried about being prepared, I have had a couple of shifts in how my mind is, I guess changing.

I’ve noticed that:

  1. I’m so ready to not be pregnant anymore. I miss not having my organs squished and not being short of breath because of it. I want to lose weight so my back will stop hurting. And its kind of hard to sleep when someone is doing gymnastics in your belly.

  2. I was doing some reading about the first weeks after the baby is born and some milestones and it was so cute. I feel like its a step towards maybe not being so apprehensive about how scary it will be to be a mom, but at the same time I know myself and I fully expect an anxious breakdown in the early days.

Anyways, that’s what’s been going on in my brain lately. Thanks for reading.

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Hey @Sapphire

It’s good to hear that your nesting has settled down!

I think you should talk to your doctor about your heartburn problem, he might have some ways to fix that. I’m sure you’re not the only pregnant woman who has had this problem. Most women have horrible heartburn while they are pregnant. I hope that your glucose test comes out ok. I didn’t have gestational, but I did develop type 2 later. Which by the way is controlled now.

At the end of my pregnancy I just wanted it to be over too. It was uncomfortable to say the least but I tried to do things like the body pillow and doing things that made me feel better. It’s very normal to feel this way, just be gentle with yourself and before you know it, you’ll have a beautiful baby in your arms.

Postpartum depression is real. It happens about a week after you give birth. I remember sitting on the couch with my xhusband and my mother and all of a sudden getting this rush of “omg i can’t do this” come over me and I had a panic attack. My mother helped me out and stayed for a few days. I had a C-section too so I needed help anyway.

Remember that not all women experience this so, try not to convince yourself of the worst. When you hold your new born in your arms for the very first time, you will be transformed into a mother. You will know what to do and I have a lot of faith in you that you will be a wonderful mother. :hrtlegolove:

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Thanks for taking the time to reply, @Mystrose .

Oh yes. A lot of my issues with heartburn and even the nausea come from the fact that I have chronic ulcers. I started showing symptoms as a teen but didn’t get them treated until I was 30. My stomach is thoroughly wrecked and I’m currently working with a different team of doctors that seem a lot more concerned about the ulcers than my primary physician, which has really impressed me. We have already discussed further treatment for the ulcers after I have the baby, but they don’t want to do anything before then.

I hope so, too. I know to some extent I’m probably making it out to be worse than it really is in my head. I do have a bad habit of doing that. If you don’t mind me asking, the development of Type 2 for you - was that just a coincidence maybe?

Body pillows are great; we got me one of the ones that wrap all the way around your body so you have belly and back support. Here recently it’s been getting less comfortable though. I supposed at some point that’s just the way it is until the baby comes. I did have an interesting experience this morning - my hip popped when I stretched. It wasn’t painful or anything but I could still feel it popping as I maneuvered to get up, which is fun nowadays haha. Anyways, I’m hoping that’s just from my muscles loosening up for the big day.

Yea, this is how many brain does any time there is a big change in my life. I tell myself I can’t do it and have a huge panic attack and in most cases it it fine after a handful of days. I have talked to my doctor about it considering I already take Zoloft for anxiety so they are kind of expecting that it will be hard for me afterwards and have made plans to address it if need be, so that is good. They told my husband too, because my anxiety has not been as bad during the pregnancy as he expected it to be, but they said, yea well the anxiety usually doesn’t get bad until after. So we’ll see.

Thank you.

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I developed it in my late 30s because I was over 300 pounds. I’m under 200 now and my pancreas is able to work normally. I still can’t grasp the fact that I can actually eat a candy bar without being afraid and guilty. I can eat whatever I want now, but I have to keep my weight in check.

I’m glad you’re talking to a specialist, I’m sure that they will take very good care of you. Also, it’s wonderful that your husband is getting involved in supporting you. That’s soooo soooo good. I’m sure he will be an awesome father!

You’re gonna want that baby out really bad pretty soon hahaha. They had to enduce my labor and I kept getting a tolerance to the pitocin they gave me, so they finally just decided to take him C-section. I didn’t even care, I was like get this kid out of me lol.

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That’s awesome that weight loss worked for you, I’m glad you were able to do that.

My husband is awesome. To be honest I probably wouldn’t have a child with anyone else. I was always indifferent when it came to kids but having a kid is literally all he’s ever wanted and he has so much fun every time he is around nieces and nephews and it makes me lot more at ease about the whole process.

I believe that I’ll want her out lol. Considering it’s already become a lingering thought. I keep wondering now, what I she is born early? My brother and I were both born early, but at this point I think I would be ok with it. Haha.

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You never know what will happen. From what you’ve said it sounds like you’re taking very good care of yourself. Just try to keep positive and make sure you keep up with doctor visits. I’m sure everything will go smoothly :hrtlegolove:

Your husband sounds like he’ll be a great father!

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Thanks. I think once I make it through the glucose test and that God awful RhoGAM shot, I’ll be past most of the scary stuff. At least until labor, heh.

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I’m sorry you have to go thru this, I would be scared too. You’ve had to deal with a lot during your pregnancy and you’ll get thru this too. I have faith in you :hrtlegolove:

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I just got my results back and they are normal. Now just need to get through the RhoGAM shot.

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Awesome! Thank you for letting us know, I was thinking about you the other day wondering. Good vibes for the shot! :hrtlegolove:

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I got the RhoGAM shot today.

When I got it 4 years ago they just assumed I wanted it in my hip so they gave me a shot in the hip while I was in the ER at 8 weeks, which kinda baffles me. But anyways, it was the worst pain I ever felt from a shot.

This time, they said I could either get it in my arm or my hip, and that most prefer the hip because it hurts less. And I was like, Hurts less? I got it in my hip and it hurt like hell so let’s do the arm. I prepared for the worst and guess what? Yea it hurt but nowhere near as much as it did the first time in my hip. My husband agreed as he was there both times lol.

But yea. I think for the most part everything I dreaded testing/shot wise is overwith now and they are going to start scheduling my appointments closer together since I’m officially at 30 weeks now. My next appointment is in 4 weeks, then 2 and then every week after that. She will be here before we know it.

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Hiii @Sapphire

I’m glad it wasn’t as bad as you thought it would be. I had an external cephalic version and I think that was the most pain I’ve ever felt in my life. The doctor puts his hands on your belly and forces the baby to turn the right way. I remember seeing my xhusband sitting in a chair with a look of horror on his face hahaha.

Thank you for the updates! I can’t wait to hear the rest of your journey.

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That’s interesting, I’ve never heard of this. I can imagine how uncomfortable it was. My girl doesn’t seem to like even having my measurement taken much less being moved around. Lol

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