How do you know that you are trying enough?
How do you know that you cannot do it by yourself anymore?
How do you know when it is time to stop and get help?
How do you know it has been enough?
How do you know it is time to give up?
I think I need help, but I do not know how to.
I am struggling, a lot, but have been in self denial about it for too long. The thoughts of death and permanent solutions are back, and they terrify me.
The other day I almost attempted suicide again, after hurting myself for the first time in almost three years. And even though I think I deal with that now, I feel lost ad helpless in this.
I have no one close by who is willing to help me.
The closest person lives 1 hour away and she is super busy at the moment.
I said I won’t bother anyone anymore, so this might be my last post…
I want to say thank you for everyone who has supported me during my time here. You are all champions.
I am sorry.
Here is my takeaway:
You can win this battle that you are fighting, you are stronger than you think. There are so many people around you who love you, give them a chance to see you and love you the way you are supposed to be loved, unconditionally.
Love is not only the best days or the worst days, love is the tuesdays.
There is hope for you.
There is joy and love for you.
Better days are ahead, I promise.