I know I should probably take all this elsewhere because people come to post more about mental health and about the struggle to enjoy and embrace life…
but right now it’s just a place I can throw it out there. If I have 6months-1year to live life, I don’t know what to do. There feels like there’s never enough time to spend with every individual person.
When I see people on here hurting and struggling with the choice of life I wish I could just give every bit of energy I have left into showing them how special and precious their life really is. Not because I’m jealous, because everyone deserves to feel that.
I really would love to make it to celebrate my 18th and give something worth living for to my friends and family. I don’t know what yet.
I guess I’m trying to focus outward more. If I start thinking too much about myself and this situation I’m scared I’ll get bitter/angry. Life is literally too short to feel that way. Sure I get scared and sometimes overwhelmed. I know things are going to get harder and I don’t know how prepared for that I am, but right now all I’ve got is maybe some form of ability to encourage others.