Id like to open by saying this is my first time here, so apologies if I may not understand how this platform works quite yet. I came here because over the past few years I’ve really grown to love august burns red as a band, and after learning more about Jake and the band in general, found that I truly support the message that they try to send. I had overcome previous mental health problems before learning of them and thought that this was a cause worth supporting. I did not, however, think that I would find myself circling back here in my current state.
Last Monday (3/29/21) I received a call from my best friends older sister who I haven’t talked to directly in about 3 or so years. Getting strait to the point, she was reaching out to inform me that my childhood best friend had died in a car crash earlier that morning. He was only 23 years old. I dont know where i would even begin to try to explain how important and how much he meant to me to a bunch of strangers. While I may not know how to give this insight, I can however express how I am currently doing.
In my past, struggling with anxiety, depression, a near suicide attempt, loss of other family and friends, alcohol addiction, ect…This has been by far the hardest thing I think I’ve ever had to deal with in my life to this point. My past experiences have made me a stronger person, and I think without them I would not be able to even reach out to anyone like this.
Thankfully many of the people who are close to me have given me the level of support I need and try to help cope. Im not even sure what Im looking to gain from posting here, but hopefully you all might.
Anyway, again im still unsure how all this works, but Jake if you see this, its because of august burns red and more specifically you as a person I look up to that has helped me pull through this past week. I couldnt have done it without you, and I hope that me writing this here helps me get through the weeks to come.
Thank you for anyone who took the time to read this and reach out.