What is it about childhood you want to keep embracing?
Freedom from responsibility? I get that. I still want that. In the meantime, from about as soon as you can talk, others are urging you to be responsible. Often can be overbearing and overwhelming. If you’re experience is like mine, grownups demanded it without bothering to explain how to do it.
Does it have to do with innocence?
Childhood innocence is based on inexperience, is fragile and often lost far too soon. There’s also a child’s wisdom, perception that comes naturally before the world causes confusion.
I didn’t have a childhood, other than physically, and even my body was used against me. It wasn’t until I was an adult that I figured out how to set adulthood aside and for a time, and be a child.
There’s innocence of childhood, not chosen, but easily taken away.
There’s also innocence by choice. It’s a choice made after experiencing the darkness in life and choosing to keep light within yourself.
I think you’ve done that many times. Chosen innocence involves empathy, compassion, and a willingness to share love. You’ve demonstrated all those things. Your heart has risen above the world that surrounds you, and that has touched me in a profound way.
You will face increasing pressure to do “adulting.” Please set aside some time to enjoy well-deserved “childing.” In truth, that will make you better at “adulting.” Hang upside down from the monkey bars, act silly, watch cartoons, or do whatever play that makes you happy. You can’t do it all the time, but enjoy it when you can.
Playing increases the capacity to learn, and makes the learning more worthwhile.
Part of being a well balanced adult is retaining a measure of childhood.
You are a kid. Be a kid whenever you can. Inside you is both a kid and someone who’s quite advanced in the capacity to care about others. That’s a good thing. Please don’t change those parts of yourself.
Message me if you ever wanna talk. Wings