Playing guitar tonight, I wish play my song that record live to venue or even just to the sound guy. Being doing my own solo project and I’m happy doing my own songs. Only thing is I still don’t have a drummer which sucks. Past band treated me like shit, and people in my scene hate my music. It childish or egotistical to care about this, people have a right to not like my music and don’t want people to worship me like Kanye west. However just pissed all year I support local bands, buy thier shirts, CDs and drive an hour to see thier show. Then I get nothing back and have people tell I don’t try hard enough or I suck at music.
I hate I’m turning of people like an Alex Rose and being little bitch about people not like my music. But can’t help about feel like shit about sometimes. Have hurt feelings and waste thousands of dollar of recording where could save it up or went on trip.
I feel so hated and broken at time.