So today (Feb. 12) at almost 4am I am writing this
Right now i am panicking a little bit because tomorrow is my birthday and i am terrified to see if my ex will tell me happy birthday or not. She broke up with me last year round March 23 though i don’t remember the exact date. I don’t know why but, recently i have started to be that one creepy e we all hate and stalk her online. Keep in mind i DO NOT reach out to her but i just check up on her profile every little while but for the longest time I just want her to not seem like she hates me. I know I am in the wrong for the most part because I am not dealing with this in a very healthy manor yet I still don’t know how to let go. A part of me wants to cut her out of my life entirely but the other part of me wants to keep her and make sure that she is okay. I know that I am getting off topic but i just want he to tell me, even if it is through someone else, “Happy Birthday.” I know it is stupid to hope for that because I know deep down that she won’t do it but I just want to hear those two words come out of her mouth. I guess what is going to be the end of my rant so thank you to anyone who took the time out of their day reading all that, it really means a lot.