This is a tough one for me because my dogs are basically my entire life. I don’t know how I’d live without them.
Over the last year or so, one of our dogs has been getting gradually worse - he no longer has reflexes in his back legs which makes walking painful and difficult, and he’s strugfling to breathe which the vets think is a form of cancer. We took him for a check-up today and we got probably the worst news possible… He’s been given 6 months to live… Not only does that just rip my heart out, it means that his litter mate won’t be far behind because she has her own problems including severe arthritis. As an addict, a question we’re asked in our step work we are asked “Is there something I think I can’t get through clean?, some event that might be so painful that I’ll have to use to survive the hurt?” < my answer to this was losing 1 or all of my dogs. I don’t know how I’m gunna get through this. It already breaks my heart and out the idea of using in my head…
I don’t know if I can handle losing something that means more to me than my own damn life.