What the title says, basically.
I am upset this morning, for no good reason. I accept that. I know it is ok that I am upset and I’m trying to let myself just feel it and be ok with it.
I’ve noticed that I want to emotionally eat again. I was definitely an emotional eater in my teen years and it led me to being obese and I hated how I looked. I fixed my diet, I forced myself to stop emotionally eating, I exercised and I got my weight under control.
I’ve always had a shaky relationship with food. Either I ate too much or I ate too little. I was overweight or too thin. I am a person of extremes, I always have been and probably always will be.
It doesn’t matter what I’m upset about because, to be honest, I don’t think its that big of a deal rationally, but I’m also walking this line where I feel this way rationally while also allowing myself to feel upset anyway and also now wrestle with these feelings of emotional eating again. It bothers me because I am a little overweight again after Covid shut down all the gyms and I went from an active job to a desk job.
I feel like I’m rambling now.
I guess I’m just hoping to see some encouragement to keep me from giving in to the emotional eating. I know others here have a complicated relationship with food also, so I figured I would reach out… and also wanted to get my conflicting feelings out about being upset but paradoxically not thinking that its that big of a deal, rationally.
Thanks for reading.