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My mother passed way a few months ago. I feel for you and your grandma. Much strength. I love your acknowledging your pain.
Hello friend,
I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. Losing your mother is always rough. I lost mine in 2014 and it still hurts to this day, cuz she was one of the best mothers anyone could ask for. The first year was always the hardest for me, but slowly got a little easier to handle, but some days still hurt more than others, even 10 years later.
I’m so sorry for your loss, friend. It must be such a heartbreak for you to have to start living without your mom’s presence. To keep on building a path that would be yours, while learning to do so without her care and voice. Not that it would be removed from your life - love remains entirely. But it certainly takes a different shape and hits deeply when we cannot hug and directly say “I love you” to someone who has been a fundamental presence in our life. It feels like parts of your own heart have been taken away, and you are left trying to build a puzzle that has no shape and just doesn’t make sense at first.
I hope that, in the midst of this grief that you are experiencing, you manage to take good care of yourself and this beautiful heart of yours. In case you needed this friendly reminder today: it’s okay if you are not perfectly functioning these days. It’s okay if you have to say no to things you would have committed to previously. It’s okay to cry, it’s okay to laugh, it’s okay to feel any of what you’ve been feeling since losing your mom. Grief is such a unique path that we learn to walk on the best we can and with the means that we have. Through it all, you deserve to give yourself as much love, care and time as your heart needs.
Thank you as well for sharing these parts of your own story here and acknowledging the pain it creates in you. You are not alone, friend. 