I wrote on the wall not that very long ago about not being able to control negative feelings and that is still a work in progress but I am getting there.
Even as little as 6 months ago if someone would have said I would have been writing this I would have thought they were crazy. I have never liked “people” they use, hurt, bully and reject you. So my life was me my Mum and my animals (animals never hurt you).
Then one day I found heartsupport… I found some human beings that heard what I said even though it sounded so silly to me, they didn’t judge and were so kind, since then I have taken the opportunity to learn more from them, to watch streams, videos and read to practice suggestions on grace and gratitude, to try to remember that there is normally a positive to be found in most situations if only you look. To breath when anxiety strikes and to refocus to calm yourself down in a difficult situation.
I have even managed to talk about my struggle with empathy recently (that doesn’t sound like a struggle} but it can be sometimes and one that people find strange.
Now every day along with keeping my list of what im grateful for I want to do something at least one thing for one person that makes them feel the way I felt when I realised what this group was all about.
I know that there are always going to be bad days but I also know that I now have friends that I can turn to on those days. opening up was always alien to me, now its so much easier.
Thank you so much everyone here, I cannot put it any clearer than that. You all mean the world to me.
