in early 2020, about january or february, i met a guy on twitch that was accused of being a pedo. since he was surrounded by close friends of mine and was a nice friend, i didnt believe it. then i stopped believing him after he sent me a dick pic and said he thought of me as he jacked off. he has basically a community that is willing to protect him.
later down the line of 2020, i had a boyfriend in march. we had a pretty close relationship. it wasnt until my close friends at the time told me about him and when i confronted him about the situation, he told me to cut myself for everyday we were “together” and something else i think.
april was when i had another boyfriend. that relationship was really well. everything was fine despite a few fights due to my mental issues at the time. well, it came to a point that he made a shitty promise that if i harmed myself, the relationship was over. i ended up harming myself and he left. i cried alot that night. it tore me to pieces like the last relationship.
around maybe november or somewhere like that i had rekindled a friendship with a group of friends. i had a vent space there and one day as i was venting, a old friend that was there was typing. i asked them not to post anything and they didnt. i said thank you in response. when i posted the vent, i was almost instantly kicked from the server because of a misunderstanding. i couldnt even explain myself until one of them dmed me about it. the whole thing was that i had insulted the friend’s girlfriend which i didnt. his excuse was that because i put dots at the front of my sentences, it meant i was talking about her and that meant i was waiting for him to leave so i could say something. they all betrayed and outlawed me.
this year has broken me away from my family. i feel like a huge burden to them. my dad isnt helping us at all really. my aunt has cancer now and its pretty devastating. ive lost a bit of my mind too. this is probably the worst year of all.