From blox5680: I have an awful family
I have bad grades
I suck at everything
I do S-H since I was 13 years old
I was beated up as a child
I just want to die and never, ever wake up again.
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Hey, thank you for being brave in sharing what’s going on. Just wanted to check in with you. I know it’s not easy to give a voice to your hurt.
I know I am glad you’re here, you’re always welcome to share, let us know how you’re going if you need.
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Hi Friend thank you for reaching out. I am so sorry you are feeling like this, you do sound so very unhappy. You should not have been hurt as a child, that was very wrong and not your fault, nothing that happened to you as a child was your fault, I hope you believe me when I tell you there is nothing you could have done wrong in your life that makes beating you ok. Have you got an adult in your life you can reach out to? an aunt or uncle, a teacher, a friends parent? let them know about your s-h and how unhappy you are feeling, they will be able to find you some help. In the meantime you can write here whenever you want to.
We hear you and we care about you and how you feel. You are loved and you are so incredibly special. Love Lisa. x
Hey friend thank you for posting and sharing. You do matter and are seen and heard here.
Please feel to post here whenever need to and share whatever is on your mind.
You are definitely have been through and are dealing with a lot, bur you do not suck in any way shape or form.
If you feel you are in a state or crisis or feel boxed in by everything please do not be afraid to reach out for help even leveraging crisis resources as they are there to help.
Hold fast and please keep in touch.
Evan/ctrain
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From blox5680: Personally I just want to have a new family, I love my mom, but everybody else I hate (Both parental side and maternal side) I wished I could move out city, state or even country, go live somewhere better, be in a new school in which nobody knows me or my past and just slowly trying to relax.
My mom wanted me to go to a therapist but I don’t want to worry her since she is the only one in this world who I truly love and care about, and as such, I’m trying my best to act good and appropietly infront of her so she doesn’t need to worry about me ever again…
Thank you for your support it actually means a lot
From blox5680: I’m doing as best as I can, tho thanks for asking and caring, it means a lot
From blox5680: I’m seriously thankful for all the support I received, I never believed anyone would actually care, I will keep in touch as much as I can
“My mom wanted me to go to a therapist but I don’t want to worry her since she is the only one in this world who I truly love and care about, and as such, I’m trying my best to act good and appropietly infront of her so she doesn’t need to worry about me ever again…”
It sounds like your mom loves you! And you know, love is also made of caring, which sometimes means worrying, but it’s a very small cost compared to what it provides. You have expressed here your care for her and how much you don’t want her to worry. It’s a noble and kind intention that you have, but it’s also okay to let your mother feel what she needs to feel and to care for you. You’re not going to control her emotions, but you can make sure to accept her help and communicate together about how you can overcome these struggles together. She can be an ally to you on this journey. I’m sure that, if she was in a bad situation, you would worry for her and not even question the fact that it’s a normal thing to feel. It’s the same towards you – you absolutely deserve to feel loved and cared for. I promise you that you are not a burden in any way. The fact that your mom was encouraging you to go to a therapist is really positive and an opportunity to seize. You know, she would certainly want to have the possibility to be there for you and know how you really feel, rather than discovering later on that you didn’t feel comfortable enough to not wear a mask that hides your true emotions. By talking with her you would not put any burden on her shoulders, you would actually help her feel empowered in supporting you - which is such a beautiful gift and mark of trust! All in all, I would like to encourage you to push away those lies that your mind is trying to convince you of - that you would be a burden to the people you love by generating uncomfortable emotions. It’s okay to ask for help, especially when someone in your life is willing to be present for you. 
From blox5680: I know she wants the best for me, but to be honest, I’m worried that she doesn’t have the time for any of my stuff, which is alright, I respect that, you see, we live in a country with a not so good economical situation, and it’s actually pretty hard for us (me, my mom and my sister) to actually live our daily life.
My mom already works all day to mantain me and my sis, I don’t think she deserves to be bothered more than what she already is (plus a therapist would be really expensive too)