I’m feeling really down on myself right now. I’m having a hard time.
Feeling discouraged, helpless, hopeless. A lot of things to take on and I’m really struggling with it.
I’m not going to do anything self destructive. I know that won’t help. I’m trying really hard not to turn to those things. Yes, I hate myself and everything I’m feeling puts the weight of suicidal ideation on me. But I’m trying to help myself out of it.
Suicide ideation is a constant battle. Every single day feels like a fight to keep on living. But I keep fighting. I try to.
I just needed to mind dump for a second. I’m hurting. I’m struggling. I don’t know how to express what I’m going through. I’m just having a really hard time and trying my hardest to push through it. I know I need to. Its hard to listen to the voice of reason when things feel so heavy.
I try to be strong in public and in this community… and not do this outside of the privacy of my home and relationship. But I need a moment to just be broken for a second.
Just for a second.