I’m luke, I’m 25 years old, live down in Dorset and I need help
Basically here goes around 6 months ago my anxiety ended up destroying my life tore me away from my fiancée of 7 years and tore me away from my 2 beautiful kids. I lost everything my home, my friends and tore me from my family. All because I couldn’t speak out about my problems.
Around 2 years a go I went to my GP saying that my anxiety was getting in the way off my life as I have suffered all my life with it. But it started to get unbearable and I had thoughts of plowing my car into a brick wall. But I didn’t want to do that because of the little family and the home I made. Got put on many different medications. They felt like they was working but found they only masked the problem. So ended up doing one on one sessions to help bring myself out off this cycle. Seemed that I started to get control off my life. But my anxiety came back very shortly after that. I couldn’t speak to my partner how I was feeling because every time I would talk about it. It felt like I hit a brick wall. So in the end because of it. I ended up driving everyone away on no fault off my own. She left me around 6 months ago. I was living in my car. As I was to scared to ask for help. So in that time I’ve gone back to mental health team and still with them now. But in that time I’ve tried drowning myself, tried hanging myself and even got sectioned under the mental health act because of how my mind set is. But I find the longer I’m away from her and my kids. Harder my life becomes and the thought off finishing my life seems to get stronger. I’ve tried everything to prove that I’m trying to sort my mental health out. But feels like I’m getting no where.
So basically this is my last resort before I end up going for good this time. So I beg with all my heart for some help as nothing else seems to work.