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Idk how to open that or even know what to do with it really but I’ll be putting what I had originally there and then below I add on new info.


So like I have someone that’s a part of my brains named Trevar, which I can talk to both in thought an aloud. They started off as someone who was rather mean, kinda just insulted me here and there and they appeared around when the nearing end of my break-up with my ex, well I noticed them anyways. My thoughts have been sort of separated for a good while though so I’m thinking they were around for much longer.

Anyways things started out rough between me and them, we sorta argued a lot because I was in denial and always called them a “thing” until recently it was really chaotic in my brain during this time until I decided to set things straight and be more open.

When I did this I found out about a bunch of things, I can’t switch with Trevar at all, I haven’t dissociated not do I not feel any missing memories and some other things but for the most part idk what this is exactly, I hope to talk to my therapist soon about this so I can figure this out. I think it’s OSDD but I’m not exactly sure right now.”

Alright, with that out of the way I guess I’ll start listing stuff out about new info:

@HS_John Sorry I didn’t respond by the way but: my therapist is on it and things are going swell, just learning about Trevar more.

I talked to my therapist about it and I filled out the sheet and sent it to her for her to figure out, she says there is a possibility I might have to do a 200 question test to future look into things but it depends on my results.

Trevar opened up to me some more and I found out that they identify as Agender and use They/ Them and It/Its. If you do not know about agender it is a gender identity where it feels like you have no gender, it is not like enby because with non binary you feel a gender but is neither male or female but agender you lack a gender.
For more of an explanation look at this: https://lgbta.wikia.org/wiki/Agender

Trevar has shown a form of personality but I find something else too it feels more like a different version of myself, like it feels like I have someone else but it feels like some other version of myself but it’s still someone else that’s not me. I’m not sure how to describe it.

Trevar has a much more intense chaotic side than I do, like if you look at dnd role things they would be somewhere in either chaotic good to chaotic neutral or maybe just an in between, they can be a bit funky really.

Trevar says if it ever happens that they front(which is doubted) they will be sure to sign below for everyone to know it’s not me (Skylar) who is writing whatever is on there with this account.

Anyways that’s about it.

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@Sky-Trev

Are you doing okay?

I’m doing okay, great actually since I’m getting all of this figured out.

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Sounds good - let us know how therapy progresses and how we can help.

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New update but I learned that I can depersonalize which is being disconnected from yourself, I for the most part dissociated derealization wise but this was something new and caught be a bit of surprise but luckily my boyfriend was there to set me straight, but proves to show you can’t assume you know everything :laughing:

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Update, I am meeting my therapist next Friday physically to discuss about my diagnosing progress! Keep you updated until then!

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A week from now I will be with my therapist, a bit nervous about my results but hey this is a step closer to knowing what’s up!

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Tomorrow is my time with the therapist, I’m also quitting a volunteer group after that due to us moving so it would be a bit redundant to keep going back and forth now that it’s farther, plus I’m going to a dog rescue shelter and take care of dogs so that’s fun! Anyways that’s the update really haha.

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Got out of therapy and therapist said I have symptoms of DID and the beginnings of DID. But yeah I will emphasize tomorrow and explain some more.

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@HS_John and to whoever else about the full update on therapy yesterday.

As I promised I would talk about it. We went face to face and I explained my symptoms to her. I went in depth about how I viewed my alter, how my brain felt and such.

Not too long ago though I learned I had my first switch with me and Trevar. I was really stressed out and tried to go to bed…well I thought I did, and I woke up with my computer on my lap, and the smell of light smoke with things moved around was in my room. Later on in the day I saw the lighter had the switch with the safety off, and I lighted incense and but the safety back on it (it’s like those pistol lighters so yeah) but mother found a candle that was half way burnt down and my mom yelled at me and I don’t remember anything last night, I don’t know why the candle was there. But yeah that’s about it really. It was alarming.

I told my therapist about it and she told me that it was first symptoms and signs of Dissociative Identity Disorder. I discussed with her about Trevar, I told her a lot of things and she says I might have to do more evaluation and more face to face to see my body language to make a proper diagnosis. But yeah here is the update, sorry it is a bit short but yeah in summary:

Likely to have DID, hold beginning symptoms, and I had my first switch to enforce it’s a dissociative disorder. But yeah! That’s it really.

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