No one to cry to actually can be true i am a livin

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“No one to cry to” actually can be true. I am a living proof. And I actually know people, like a lot, I was a know musician in my r country, not some star I was just simply play a lot. I am 43 and I am on withdrawal program for a 6 years already and its just worse. My whole life is just the pain, from the day 1, I am filling like I am going away slowly and finally. People dont like to hear some hard, dark shit stuff, they got their own problems, I tried so many times, God knows that i WANT TO SAY A 100000 words aloud KNOW ONE CARES from my little town where I live with my wife and son to capital city where I recorded our latest album 2 moths ago. They care only when they have interest. It wosnt my choice to go to the war TWICE, than to go junkey prison just because I am junkey I never done anything wrong to any human, not for a prison at least. after the war they arseted me for a year, not just me 1k of us, and they were beating us to the death, every day 3 different “prisoners” must get some beating that usualy last for 2 h and everybody else must watching. There was a literally a little river of blood, shit and piss from us in the middle of the yard. WE coll that that Blood circle, we also had a wall of cry…at that just one story from autumn 2007-2009. They shoot prison down at 2010. Before this prison I had few friends who wonted to talk with me, after that, I just have me and my PTSD and I AM FIGHTING but there ia a limit how much one body and one soul can take…blow after blow. My baby boy is my only joy, I stop searching for a job people simply dont want to hire me, after 5 years of trying I stopped. SO you can be around million people, I think there is some level what u can say to your friend and when you cross that level they become afraid, several friends told me Hey Mladen you should not talk about this and that its to dark, basically I cant talk about what shrink told me to talk about…This is a really fuck up world, Layen just told u. I really loved him. He said in one song called Junkhead “U can’t understand a users mind but try with your books and degrees” NO offences u are adorable and lovely, but in the world there are 1% people like u <3

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Hi Friend,

Thanks for posting and welcome!

I can identify with this. It can be so hard not to feel so far away and like we do not have anyone. I’ve often felt like there are no connections I can make that could possibly ease what I’ve been through and the PTSD I suffer from. One big thing for me that has helped has been working with a therapist and sticking to it which sounds like you’re doing too.
For me it got a lot worse before it started getting better. One other thing that helped was someone sitting me down and saying to be like a Bison. Which at first I thought was very weird but then they expanded by saying Bison head straight into storms instead of finding shelter and waiting because they find the better weather quicker.

Reaching out like this is a huge step. Here at heart support you can speak your mind and get some of those responses that can help and be encouraging so I’d definitely say you’ve come to the right place.

It sounds like you truly value your family and that you seek to work on finding relief. Do not give up, continue working on things, and know that we all believe in you!

Please don’t hesitate to reach out again.