Just feeling really isolated right now. I never hear from anyone. I haven’t been myself in weeks and no one has noticed. I could literally just disappear and I doubt anyone would notice or even care it seems. I’m contemplating starting to cut again just so I can feel okay again.
I get that. I’m still getting out of the cutting habit, however, I tend to feel like the only way for people to stay interested in me is if I relapse because I’m caught in a cycle of believing people are disconnecting from me right now. Take this from someone who cut for 12+ years… and used drugs for 7+ years… IT DOESN’T HELP. It promises it will, but after you’ve not done it for a period of time, it STOPS WORKING. My most recent relpase after a month… it did NOTHING.
You can get through this in other ways. Check out rewrite the HS self-harm resource… Email Casey at [email protected] if you would like a free copy of that.
I’m sorry friend. I’m in a similar boat. I wish I could wrap my arms around you and hug you as I know how hard it is to feel so alone and isolated.
I see you. I hear you and I care about you. We are strangers but I still care for you as a person. I want you to be okay.
I’m sending you so much love right now. I know it probably doesn’t feel like much from afar. But…just the same.
Right now I’m really trying to keep from relapsing for the sake of my family. 2019 has already been a year of loss and I don’t think I could put my family through another loss. I’ve got a copy of rewrite that I have been working through. Self harm is just something I’ve had as a crutch off and on for the last 14 years. It’s just hard when I don’t seem to hear from anyone except my husband who is so busy with work and helping raise our little boy.
Just trying to find a light in the darkness for their sake.