Hey! First of all, sorry if everything sounds a bit confusing, i’m very bad at writing a wall of text cleanly…
I’m going through a lot of mental trouble at the Moment. I have a friend, my best friend and the person that gives me the most happyness in life. We know each other for ~10 years now. We live faaaaar away from each other, he is in america and i am in germany but we voice chat everyday for many many hours, watch movies together, draw together, lots of fun stuff! My biggest wish is to meet him one day but there is 0 chance this will happen :c
Now, we both are adults with health issues and we both have no job, no money… (25 and 29)
My Health is worse than his and i’m in general more optimistic and do my best to be able to live normally again.
My main issue: He is veeeery done with live. He lives with his Mom who has her own set of problems and their living condition is insanely bad. No good living space (many broken things, Mom has a hoarding issue) , has to overwork to pay for basic things. My friend is also trans which makes things even more difficult for him.
He’s not openly talking to me about things a lot but when he does, it always makes me cry a lot. He said that noone can help him or takes him serious and that he has plans to die at 30. He mentioned that a few years ago too and recently, he said it again. It hurts me a lot.
He says it so calm and serious and he usually means what he says. I’m scared but i understand his feelings a lot.
He doesnt have anyone to reach out to, hes stuck and can’t even get some kind of vacation. If he at least had a friend he could visit for a couple of weeks, that would be good to him.
All i can do is to tell him to reach out to anyone he knows but i don’t see any success in anything. Hope is fading away.
Sorry if this all seems like a mess but i just don’t know how to feel and think anymore. So many problems in life…