So I haven’t been around here for a while, and mostly things have been feeling okay. My relationships are all doing very well. I’m just not sure where I’m going at this point. I’m aspiring to be a game developer but it’s really difficult when I struggle with ideas. And art. And music/sound design. You get the point. I’m feeling competent enough with the language and engine, I just have nothing in mind to make. A friend of mine had an idea for a game and could handle the art and music, but she’s been busy with school and I don’t feel comfortable just waiting around until she’s available.
Speaking of, I feel a lot of good options to actually earn myself some money are locked away behind school. I tried going to a community college a couple years back but I struggled with all the classes that weren’t exactly what I was interested in learning. I also tried an IT job while I was there but either due to the circumstances or the job itself it went poorly quickly. I’m aware of trade schools and things like them, but my experience with that short-lived job has really left a bad impression.
I do stream playing some games with friends in an attempt to get my name out there before my first game, and for what it’s worth I’ve been able to start monetizing that as of recently, but I don’t even know how long I have to find something that would do enough for me financially. I had intended to get some tech certifications like A+, but at this point I’m not even sure what I’d do with it. Normal jobs just don’t feel like a good fit, not for lack of trying. My ideal job would be something with a flexible schedule where I get paid for what I produce instead of how much time I spend regardless of how empty that time is. I don’t see that in the options (as far as normal jobs go) that are available to me, though I could search more.
In short, it feels like all ways lead to a dead end, chance, or complete unknowns. Anyone have any advice for any of this? How to effectively come up with ideas (since music and art can be sourced elsewhere)? Or something I could do to produce some other product people would want? I don’t live near terribly many people so something like woodworking or any other physical product or service has its limitations as much as I’ve enjoyed that in the past (I’m not terribly skilled in it nor do I have access to many tools, either). I genuinely don’t know what I am at this point or what I’ll be even 2 months from now. Big thanks in advance for any help that could be provided