Hey everyone, I’m currently spiraling down. Over the past few months I’ve been under a lot of stress and college restarted which put me under more stress. I’ve become overwhelmed because I’m too involved in organizations and don’t have free time so I’ve taken a step back. I lost motivation to go to classes that I typically enjoyed and so my grades have slipped to the point where I have to start auditing them. In addition I just went through a breakup with a girl who I thought was the one, similar interests, same career path, same area we came from. I’m also 800 miles away from my family too and I’m really alone here. People down here say they’re here for me but they aren’t when I need them. I tried getting help the other day because my stress and mental health has made me constantly vomit, have headaches, and flu like symptoms but the doctor told me its not related at all despite testing negative for flu and strep throat.
I’ve always been able to put on a fake face and be in public like that but this is so bad people in my classes and in public have all noticed and always tell me I look extremely tired (which I am).
I’m just very discouraged and stressed and frustrated at this point. I recently bought my dream car but even that didn’t make me feel happy which is something I couldn’t have ever imagined to not be excited about.
In addition I’m a firefighter back home and I don’t want to try to get help and just be lumped into “it must be PTSD” group. Yes I’ve seen bad things happen to good people many times, but I for the most part have been able to acknowledge that not everyone can be saved and all that matters is that we put our all into it.
I just feel so alone and worthless at this point and I’m trying to get help but its so discouraging when you don’t get acknowledged that you need help.
If anyone has any recommendations for therapists in the central Florida area please please let me know because apparently my campus counseling center just hands out pamphlets and doesn’t really try to help either.