@AVJR @Efa117 @Firefly @all_around_ashley I appreciate every single one of you and appreciate your words and encouragement. I’ve been around people who really want me to overcome this in a silent means, but I feel it is important to share this struggle. I have youth I lead at my church and I have to be vulnerable to share the pitfalls of my life so I can steer others from them. It’s weird, but I know my triggers and what leads me into porn. I know when I’m depressed or trying to repress my feelings I turn to it. If I’m bored or feeling lazy I’ll do it. Or if I’m mad I’ll do it. Basically if I have any “spare” time I’ll try to work my way to it because it’s all I’ve done for years. Also everything is so sexualized on social medias and even you tube it’s crazy! I think I will try to get someone to seriously counsel me on it because I know this will be a serious ministry for me one day. I won’t shame others about sex and porn because I know what it’s like to fail at something repeatedly. The good thing about this is it has humbled me to understand everyone in a way, even past our faults. I want to love everyone, because no one is perfect. I truly appreciate you all. You have blessed me to keep going in conquering this addiction.
Also if anyone else read this I love this site called: fight the new drug. It is a good source to start the journey to combating porn addiction. I will be here for anyone who needs to talk or encouragement.
Once again, THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH who replied. I love you beautiful people for taking the time to see about another human in distress.