@marxlaworiginal As long as you keep trying to get there you’re good! Boredom is a big one for me too. But it goes deeper than “I’m bored I want to watch porn” you know? For me at least, that’s usually a sign that I’m feeling lonely and disconnected from myself and my loved ones. If I’m bored and wanting to act out, it’s often a defense mechanism I’ve had to guard against feeling lonely. Good idea with the hobbies! When I first began recovery, I identified healthy things that I enjoy doing and I just did them more often to fill the void I had when I stopped watching porn. Getting an accountability partner is HUGE. A sponsor ideally, but at least someone who can keep you on track will help. I have Covenant Eyes on my phone which definitely prevents me from watching porn. My wife gets a report everyday of my internet history. It’s not as bad as it sounds, but it keeps me from watching porn.
I had it for awhile… and tried it with my gf. It didn’t work the way I wanted to and got discouraged. Like I said before… I just don’t feel people see how bad it is for me. I don’t know… maybe I have like issues with people not caring? Maybe… I should try it with my mom. Sounds super weird… but I feel she would actually ask about it and keep up with what I’m doing. That’s what I would like. I probably should discover a couple of others that would help me as well.
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Hey man I understand your struggle. I’m actually dealing with something kind of similar. I use pornography as a way of escaping my true lonely thoughts. Instead of trying to address the problem I just use it as an aphrodisiac if you will. How do I get through it? I try as hard as I can to put my mind on other things. It’s easier said than done trust me I know. But sometimes you have to try and hope for the best. And if people don’t care you have to let them know that it’s an issue for you and ask for help seek Direction from those who have been in your situation. Here for you anytime you want to post on here my man.
What would you rather be doing than looking at porn?
Sorry @George_Mallory and @Night_King_19 I been off for a while! Yes. The journey continues learning triggers and I don’t feel enslaved to my urges. I’m realizing I am the author of my fate and the problem is me and my decisions.