Porns my daily struggle but i know ill be fine

It’s like I know that porn has had a hold on me for the past 7 to 10 years and when I go cold turkey it’s not like a drinking problem or a drug problem. It’s a battle with my mind I don’t get physical sick but I cause myself to have panic and feel alone at times I have barely began living life and now that I am overreacting life as a whole even with my faith in God I felt like it was OK to watch that I wasn’t committing a sin in the aspect of letting people see me and how it has had its affect on me. I have so much respect for women and I know that porn has ripped my heart in half. I know God is with me buy I feel alone at home with not finding people who have been through recovery. Yet the conviction from the father has been the reason why I don’t anymore even though it has only been a weak it has been bliss I have been writing more about love and life and wanting to find my wife . It’s weird that a good thing called living can be scary at times. Who can relate

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@Lifespoet22

Hi. Nice to meet you. Welcome to the community. It means so much to us (HeartSupport). I can relate to you. I struggle with porn addiction too, relapse, and beating myself up because of it. I am going to be 11 days free from it, and I thank God for it. I encourage you to ask the Holy Spirit to transform you, and follow your conviction. Take it one day at a time. Be patient. Continue to pray, and God will help you out on this. You are not alone in this. You will have a beautiful wife one day. If you want to share more, this forum is still open for you. Thank you for reading this. Let the love of Jesus Christ be with you. Peace.

Thanks man 11 days is tough and I honestly feel like this times is easier I know I have my life group and my therapy as well as God and the holy spirit it’s just good to hear that another person is in this fight at the same time in real time. We get the stories after the fact buts its great to hear someone fighting it as its happening. Like I had a month of not watching this year but life and deaths in my family kinda lead me back to it. Porn has been like a numbing thing for Me but I hate to be numb. Now I found help with my life group and we had a breakthrough and I found people to keep me in check but it’s nice to hear someone else is fighting it as well. Resources like Fightthenewdrug have been a blessing for me psychological. But I had this feeling of loneliness today I had always been a fan of heartsupport but I was like Today I’ll just join for the heck of it

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@Lifespoet22

Keep it up! :+1:t5:

Addictions can also be symptoms. They can cause and be caused by other forms of mental illness. Pornography, in my experience, is like taking a cheese grater to my spirit. It has left me raw and full of holes. I am currently trying to walk away from it, permanently. It’s still hard not to relapse even though I know that it harms me and that God does not consider it acceptable behavior. The Holy Ghost leaves when I turn towards pornography.

What would you rather do than consume pornography? There are so many things that you could do instead of consuming pornography that are merely wastes of time. I find it easier to redirect depressive or self-destructive moods than I do completely stopping them.

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