From blazinnbunn: I just feel so alone. Dealing with two pretty unfair legal charges, now have two tickets to deal with also and an invalid driver’s license due to all of it. I just started school in April because even though change terrifies me, and things usually go wrong when I try to do anything for myself…I wanted to do something. I’m 25 and feel no reason to be here. And of course, everything starts falling apart. The friend I was supposed to room with nearby school abandoned me after over a decade of friendship. My car always has an issue. The legal stuff, and now I have to try to get to school while knowing I could get pulled over and ticketed and possibly arrested any time doing so. I just want to give up and run away from it all and I don’t know what to do. I don’t have any friends, I stopped talking to a lot of them because of abuse and being taken advantage of. Just felt it was better to be alone, but now I don’t even have security in myself anymore and I don’t know what’s keeping me here, tbh. I genuinely can’t figure out why I can’t just leave. I don’t understand how I can have every single reason to leave and still just am too scared or cowardly or whatever to just do it.
Hey blazinnbunn,
I have been living long enough on this earth to know that when everything seems like it is going wrong and you just want to throw in the towel, this is actually the time to hold on because a change is coming. Life can get extremely difficult especially when the people you count on neglect you and you don’t have the resources to accomplish your goals. Trust me I have been here and done this, my inner motto is to keep going because a dream can’t chase itself. If necessary, get creative utilize the resources that you do have access to. More importantly, always remember that self-belief is one of the most powerful assets that anyone can have. I say all this to say, " Jump on that train to your future because giving up is not an option." You Got This!
Feeling the urge to give up and run away is completely understandable. When everything feels like it’s falling apart, the idea of escaping from it all can seem like the only option. Deciding to be alone to protect yourself from abuse and being taken advantage of made sense at the time, but now it’s left you feeling even more isolated, and you are tyring to find your way through it.
The weight of all these issues, from legal obstacles to personal betrayals and the difficulty to make positive changes, are a lot to deal with. You’re dealing with so much on your own and the loneliness just amplifies everything. Feeling like there’s no reason to be here is such a dark place to be in, and it makes sense to feel like being in a lot of pain. It’s a season that feels confusing overall.
It’s okay to feel overwhelmed and lost, and it’s okay to say it, friend. You’re navigating a difficult season of your life and it’s understandable that you feel this way. Know that through it all, this community will be by your side. It may not fix the situation instantly, but you do have allies rooting for you out there. In the midst of what feels very isolating and lonely, you are not alone, my friend. 