Gosh, I ran away and regretted posting this, thank you so much everyone you’re all too sweet, I am so very grateful.
@Micro , Thank you so much. Its nice to see you. I’m sorry that you’ve had your own share of intrusive thoughts, they’re not very fun to have. I honestly dont have a proper healthy way to put all these thoughts down, I am off and on with journaling.
Because of how repetitive and unending it feels, I always end up letting it go. I tend to try to tell them to my boyfriend as soon as I can tell its bothering me and he’ll usually bring me back to reality and clear my head, I don’t always do it became I try to sort these things out on my own without him worrying.
It gets lonely, it hurts, and at my worst it’s hard not to feel broken, but I’m trying my best. I hope to be as much as a beacon as you and many others here are, you are truly a life saver. Again, thank you so much.
@Aardvark , thank you so much tor taking the time to respond. You are right that I do care, and pushing these things away make it all worse. Thank you for sharing your experiences with me. I have considered any form of help, unfortunately I have no way to get there on my own, I will definitely take any more steps I can for myself when I have my own car, which I’m working on.
I feel more than hugged, thank you again, it means a lot.
@ManekiNeko , Hello, thank you for checking in, it really means more than you think. I would say intrusive thoughts are uncomfortable thoughts that get worse the more it makes you uncomfortable, until I fizzle out from stress. I’ve got a bad habit of throwing and sleeping concerns off, and you’re right that it definitely comes to mind more often as much as its thrown off.
I’ll try writing again, it really doesn’t hurt to try, I feel like I just don’t enjoy how repetitive it starts to look after awhile. Like “Wow I’ve had a panic attack over the same thing 3 times in the last 5 months!” Y’know? But I’ll definitely try it out again.
I’ll have a look at the video, thank you so much for reaching out and sharing this with me, I appreciate it very much.
Thank you so much and take care everyone