I have that feeling of confusion, I don’t know if there is something wrong with me or it was only coincidence; but it seems that whenever I invite someone to spend time with me (considering their daily activities), they reject me, cancel me, and even ignore me.
At first I thought it only happened with people not so close, but then I even saw that my girlfriend (now ex-girlfriend) was not interested and it seemed that she did not even enjoy being with me.
Later, this was happening with people that I consider my friends, they ignored me and I even insisted a lot so that they would pay attention to me.
The saddest thing is to see that these people have time to go out with others, but they do not take you into account.
I’m starting to think that maybe I’m someone that nobody wants to be around.
I do not understand how other people have such close friendships, they have a partner and they manage to maintain those close and strong ties. I sincerely wish I could have that ability.
I hadn’t realized all of this until recently. Lately I have realized that despite having “ties”, “friends”, and even a partner, I got to feel very lonely and distressed.
A moment ago, I expressed to a very close friend how she made me feel, and she simply said “Stop it, shut up”, she got mad at me and then she told me it was all my fault.
I swear not to express myself in a bad way, it probably just frustrated me, but I did not say anything offensive or act incorrectly.
I probably consider these people close friends, but they do not see me with the same importance in their life.