BRUH! Someone in my class smiled at me because I laughed at something they said. They asked for my name and then they said I sounded so elegant and it made me blush a little. IT MADE ME FEEL GOOD and they started telling their friends about me.
BOOSTED MY HEAD UP
For a long time I thought people were thinking less of me but I’m actually held to a high standard? And now im thinking about all the times i was so clouded in insecurities that I couldn’t see that people genuinely respected me. Like now im imagining what it would be like if i had the confidence. Which I don’t have now but slowly getting there but i think i would be noticed a lot more if I were more comfortable and less socially inept.
Actually I wonder what the neurotypical version of me would be like that. She would probably be really cool. But I also like the way I am now, the neurodivergent me.
I shut myself out of society so much that even the littlest positive reinforcement from other human beings makes me go crazy and I won’t stop thinking about this for the rest of the year.