yeah i ran back to the guy i had a crush on who only used me for my body , yeah he lead me on knowning he didn’t want any intention with me . yeah i bought gifts for him, yeah i know i’m stupid , stupid to ever think someone would ever like me … i don’t really want to sound like a pick me person but what did i do to deserve this . what do i do to deserve being hated ny my own mom and sisters … what did i do ? yeah she left scars on me and i can’t get it out of my mind i can’t forget how i was crying and bleeding while she didn’t care … i hate myself so much i really wish i was good enough … sometimes i wish i was skinny enough , pretty enough , have a beautiful smile & face with a smaller nose … i hate my body so much because everytime i look at it i get flashback of everything … yeah i use to get bullied in school for not being pretty or good enough to hang with … maybe i deserve everything , its karma right ? i will never love myself and i think it will stay like that forever… i wish i fit society standards sometimes … i wish my childhood was never filled with trauma and abuse… i sometimes wish i had loving & caring parents…
btw thanks everybody who take the time out of their day to say something nice to me i appreciate it… sometimes i feel like a burden telling my problems to you guys … maybe i need to take time for myself and distants myself from everybody …