I just got out of prison november of 2023. I did 6 on a 7 and spent the whole time trying to understand myself and why i rationalized doing what i knew whats horribly wrong. Everyone always talks about self acceptance and forgiveness. But, i cannot seem to get there. Its a weekly thing i battle my depression spiral. I listen to music that helps me relate to my moods. But, i need help. Im losing this fight. I need…someone? Im in group therapy but it doesnt work and i dont relate because its parole mandatory and they talk about the same thing most weeks. I dont get help when i asked for it and at best my journal entry is used to guide the class instead of addressed or talked about. My crime was like a decade ago and ive been fighting myself the whole time. Before i got convicted i had to sell my gun because i almost did it. This is.hard for me. I need someone.
Hello AshMor,
As someone who was in solitary confinement for a month I have a sense of your pain and suffering. It’s not easy in there, and there is no preparation for the hardships that come from that experience.
Self acceptance and forgiveness isn’t easy either. Thinking on the positives you have in life and realizing you are only human is essential. You’ve got this!
Leave what you did in the past and strive to become a better version of yourself each and every day.
What music helps you through this? Music has helped me more times than I can count.
Reach out if you’d like to chat more.
I want to welcome you to heart support and to just be a friend to stand by and say, man, we love you.
In some way there’s a human struggle with self acceptance and love, and it’s something that unites us to find that love to share with others when they have hit their low.
I don’t need to pry or bring up your past to know that I’m proud of you being here and that I have love for you.
I hope by reaching out here you get to experience genuine love for the simple fact of being.
Hi there,
I just want to acknowledge how heavy it must be carrying all of that regret. It must feel horrible to try to come to terms with what happened while also dealing with depression and feeling like the support you’re getting isn’t really helping you.
I understand that you are looking for someone to understand you on a deeper level and understand where you’re coming from. Group therapy can be frustrating more when it is mandatory and you don’t feel like they are personalizing the care to your needs, and I’m really sorry you are going through that, no one should have to fight alone.
Would it be possible for you to find someone outside of group therapy, like a counselor or therapist that can give you more individual attention? You deserve to have someone who helps you work through all of these heavy feelings and someone who truly listens to your needs. And remember that here you will always have someone who listens to you and someone who will support you through the hard times.
And remember that you are not alone and you matter
sending love and support,
domenica
Hi there AshMor,
Thank you so much for reaching out. Thank you so much for being open and honest with us. I know that can be extremely difficult to do. But you had the guts to do it, and respect the heck out of that. You made a wonderful decision by coming to us today.
I hope this doesn’t come off poorly, but I really want you to know that you are not your past. I don’t know you personally, but what I do know is that you are a person that wants to be a better version of yourself. I respect you for that. I am here to help you find that peace and happiness. We all here are. We are here to support you on your journey, because you deserve that. We are here for you. Please stay strong 
-blake