Self-worth (lack of) and the fallout

I’ve just been lost recently, stuck at an unfulfilling job with no more room for advancement just for the sake of the weekly paychecks and benefits. My constant fear to take leaps is perpetuated by the constant need for money and at least a decent income for bills, etc.

My severely lacking self-worth has caused an abrupt break in my 8.5 year relationship with my girlfriend, who I consider my soulmate. The fact that I have had trouble recently with finding true happiness in most anything (beyond music, the gym, artwork whenever possible) has caused a chain reaction with most other life facets, including the healthy functioning of my relationship with her and effective communication.

I have felt stuck at this job in trucking/safety for quite awhile (already been here 2.5 years) and just want to have the courage to take a chance on something I’d truly enjoy. I went to school and graduated with a bachelor’s degree in studio art and have a very solid foundational knowledge of supplementation and pre/infra/post workout nutrition. I’m happiest when I’m at shows or able to do artwork / go places with friends and my significant other.

I took this job in 2019 for the sake of establishing a decent income for the time being, as my girlfriend was transitioning to nursing school from working in cosmetology previously and growing to severely dislike it. Since that time, she has graduated and accepted a role as an RN / step-down nurse at a prestigious hospital. Meanwhile, Im still stuck at my unfulfilling trucking company position that is full of negativity and constant issues / bickering, etc.

I want to take a leap for the sake of my mental health / sanity, which is taking that much more of a hit recently because of the fact that she has requested a break while she tries to figure things out on her end (wants / needs / the future). I want to reclaim the confidence I once had with her, and take charge of my life to advance and hopefully be able to reestablish a healthy and thriving relationship with her again.


From: Katelynn Nye

Welcome. Please know that you keep on focusing on your dreams and maybe one day rekindle that relationship you had.


From: eloquentpetrichor

Hey, new friend! Welcome to the forum! Thank you for sharing with us. You sound like you know exactly what you want/need to do. I think you’ve got this and you can get out there and do it. Leap and fly. I believe in you. Feel free to share again anytime :hrtlegolove:



Hi Friend, it sounds like you know what you want and it sounds like you know what you need to do to get there. I hope you find peace! ~Mystrose


From: Lisalovesfeathers

Hi Friend, Welcome to Heartsupport. Thank you so much for your post, I am sorry that you are feeling so stuck right now but what I found so fascinating about you post is that you alrealy really know what you want to do which is awsome, I love that you have a goal and all you need to do now is meet that goal and for that you need some support and you have that here in bundles. We are here to support you all the way, post here whenever you wish. Much Love Lisa x

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The fact that you have this wonderful passion is so so amazing and a great place for starting. It’s hard when you’re in a toxic work environment and have no stepping stones of how to exit.
Do you think you’d like to take up work to be a nutritionist? One local nutritionist here even does menus for cafes to have healthy selections, for gyms and of course for personal clientele. It would be so wonderful to see you be able to branch into that and do your artwork maybe even on the side to start with! Who knows maybe the two will incorporate together one day! It would be so cool seeing your logos on your own supplements or doing designs for local gyms who you assist with nutrition and fitness for.
Whatever it is you’re wanting to get out of it, I cannot wait to see you start to be free from the exhaustion of mentally draining yourself at this current position.
And sometimes that’s also the kick a relationship needs. Ensuring both parties are thriving and reaching their goals.
I hope you’re going well!

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