I had really exposed bad at my friends last night. They got mad cuase I did not invited them to my beach house on my vacation. To honest, they are a lot deal with while on vacation and I can’t really enjoy it. I know it sound shitty, but I hate having them up their. To fair, they do keep the house clean and are appreciate it. But one just get anger over little shit and other just annoying sensitive, and I can only handle him lest than a day.
He made that they upset that could go on my vacation, and it was unfair. This same friend get to awesome place like cruises, different countries, and get travel and other one has beach house in Florida. They are get paid time offs and a lot personal days.
They are being Asshole, they using me for my beach house and I just wanted time to myself.
However, only friends I got, but I’m alone. No friends, no girlfriend and only my family. I was afraid this would happen, I struggle with friendships. They always fall apart or drift away. Then I’m alone, with no to go on a Friday night and just by myself at bars. My teacher was right, I’m meant to be alone. I’m a bad person in a lot of ways. But do try to an alright guy. I do go out my way for people, I was use in the past a lot. Then fucking snap at people and it everything falls apart. In someway everyone hates me, cuase im an asshole.
Im going to die alone, cuase I deserve it.