You are welcome, I am so glad to hear you went to your practice!
I know the feeling of anxiety and inadequacy very well! I think a song about the positivity and wellbeing that music brings is awesome! Music is a very vital part of life near and dear to many people in the world and is historically rooted in almost every society’s beginning times. What an awesome thing to have a passion for!
Casey has an awesome twitch video workshop on time management and how to work on better scheduling time out. I have a link below. There are also some awesome videos of his on twitch about goals
Here they are for ya
Time Management Workshop - Self-Care Meets Block Scheduling
Workshop Clip - How to Make Your Goals Easy and Automatic
Workshop Hilight - Healthy Goals Can Still Fail
A bit more history if this helps you relate to me: I was the rhythm guitar/harmony vocals in the band i was in and i play 12 string which I always felt inadequate about because the lead of the band was known for his guitar abilities, his charming characteristics, his commanding presence, his voice, as well as his general demeanor. It was never meant to feel that way, but it became very hard for me to get out of that head space sometimes.
There are many ways i was in a different place then than i am now. I was in a christian band which put a lot of pressure on us to have to always act a specific way, be a specific way, and generally have a life that looked perfect from the outside. Well it was anything but for myself with depression. It made it difficult because i put so many unrealistic expectations on myself. It was a very hard struggle for myself being in a band when i was in school myself i never realized i had 2 passions going at once and i couldn’t fully dedicate myself to either.
I found i needed to get an education to be sure I was able to support myself through life and through the cash shortages, as well as the more important understanding of the world around me so as to know how to write better music. You never become a better musician without learning music, math, literature, and history too.
We have to give ourselves grace, mercy, hope, and understanding as we grow through our entire lives no matter where we are because we are changing every day. So one day might be less anxious, one may be more. But you are so strong to go in through these feelings, great job! I wish I would have done that some of those days, but other days when i did, i was just a body and i wish I would have done more to participate myself. So i encourage you to keep participating, keep going, and keep telling yourself you are worthy of the positive things that you are worthy of.
We are here for you!
You’re loved, you matter, and you’re cared for greatly!