Something that helped me to connect to my body and my emotions was meditation. That sounds way fancier than it actually is. You just sit down, focus on your breathing and direct your awareness to different parts of your body. This, at least for me, was very challenging at first because I hadn’t felt anything before and only lived in my head. Over time, this will become easier.
A good occasion to try to connect to your emotions is when the restlessness arises or when you feel pressured to work through your to-do list. These mechanisms have a purpose. For me, my restlessness tried to protect me from facing emotional pain by driving me to (unhealthy) distractions.
A good tip is to be curious about the emotions and not anxious. Allow them to be there, acknowledge them and welcome them. When they come up, don’t try to push them down even though they might be difficult to handle. Your body knows what it can deal with and will cut off automatically when it is too much.
It might also be that nothing comes up and that’s okay, too. If this was the case, you could ask yourself what you think about these emotions and if you felt them, what does it say about you? Do you judge yourself for having emotions? Do you think you’re weak when you’re expressing them? Has there ever been a time in your life when it wasn’t safe to express your emotions? Addressing these questions might then give you more insight on what is going on and make it easier to allow the emotions to be there.
Since you mentioned that you already know what this might be about, be there for that part of you that had to go through hardship and support it as best as you can. This is all about being self-compassionate and understanding with yourself. Be kind to yourself as if you spoke with a dear friend or a loved one.
Another suggestion I can make is to journal. Writing down how you’re feeling and what is on your mind can help processing issues, because when you see it written down it is not as vague, mysterious, or terrifying as when it’s floating around your mind.
Now, I can imagine that what I wrote, or parts of it, might sound odd. These are only suggestions based on what helped me face my emotions. Everyone has their individual preferences so it is totally fair that some things might not be a good fit. You’ll find the tools that will help you navigate these emotions.
This is absolutely fantastic and a very courageous step. It can be a substantial hurdle to overcome when you’re not used to talking about your issues. Your profile says that you just want to be happy. I hope this will be a step that brings you closer to finding your happiness.