I came on today really struggling, and one comment made a difference with me, and I really hope you notice me making an effort for you, because you do matter, you are noticed.
One of my therapists said that suicide is never the answer, but it does look like one. She said that pain is cyclical, and it can build up enough to break us, and when we break we just want something to relieve the pain, but we dont know how to handle it, and we naturally try to make the pain go away the fastest.
Take the week to play with your dog, really show them how much you care, give them a walk, treats, baths, everything you can possibly do. And know the look they return is a one deserving because that dog noticed you. I’m sorry I keep referring to your dog in the third person, I just know you said dog, and I know enough that you care about him/her.
It will take time, but try new things. The comfort in life can make it easy, and the small risks we take can have huge impacts. Walk your dog in a different neighborhood, go to a different park, if they are sick, carry them if you can. You matter. The small things you do in this world can matter so much to it. You might not think you matter but the universe needs you for your dog