Stuck in a Rut

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Hi im new here but yall feel like a good community so i will share this, ok so for 5 years now ive been stuck in a rut of terrible self talk and no self esteem, i struggle with depression and anxiety and have a history of self harm (thats how i used to punish myself for making a mistake) i cringe at any love or form of good self talk, im probably not the only person who struggles with this. Thanks for reading

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hi there. ive a friend who is the same as you. self harming himself as a way of “punishing” himself, no self esteem and cringing at any optimism. i know it can be tough. but keep on going buddy. i myself am struggling with stuff and motivation to continue, but one thing is clear. no amount of guilt or “punishment” will help. it wont fix anything. it will only do more damage. lets come to practical solutions maybe? what was the root cause of u falling into this dark pit? and is there any way to overcome it. therapy would be a great step ahead. if you dont have the resources to, or fear being judged about it. try talkin to a friend about this. find someone to confide in. many well wishes to you!

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Thanks for replying

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Self-harm holds many forms. I do things to harm myself that don’t involve cutting just because nobody around me really cares about me. I have met 1 person that cares, but she is so far away and has a job caring for many others, so I have little interaction with her. I have always been looked down upon and/or ignored because I am disabled and receive SSI. I am afraid to get too close to people because of how many times I have been hurt. I feel so worthless and suffer from much grief from losing people that really didn’t care much for me, but I cared for them.

I don’t know any magical things to break this, but what helps keep me going is knowing others who are too shy to come forward see my openness in struggling with all the things I’ve been through, and they are encouraged to fight on and take strength in my battle against the darkness that seeks to consume me.

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Yeah i like to open about it if people ask as well hints why i posted this and because i could use some advice. Thanks for replying