Have you gone back and read the posts we left for you in your “I think im ready to let it go” thread? There is a lot of support there. This was my reply. Can you relate to it? Your story sounds really familiar.
From: ᏒᎧᏕᎥᏋ
Hi @Amaris This is going to include your latest post. I want to give you what I go thru and I want you to see if you can relate ok? I fear that I’m going to loose my friends at any second. I feel like if I annoy them or lean on them too much they will get mad and cut me off. When they are giving me attention and support I love them and I feel their love in that moment. I feel on top of the world, much like you did 23hrs ago. Nothing can stop me and my friends love me so much. Then, I’ll DM one of the people who have shown me the most attention and have said things like they will always be there for me and love me…but, they don’t DM me right back. I start a loop of self hate thinking. They hate me, I’m annoying, I share too much, they are ignoring me etc. I crash and I want to just DM them and ask what I did wrong or whatever to get their attention. I’ll test them to see if they still love me. Sometimes drama happens and I loose everyone or I just leave first so they don’t hurt me first. Does any of this sound familiar? We can talk more about this if you if you want to. ~Mystrose
Just because one person says something to you like that doesn’t mean that everyone there feels the same way. This person can say these things and still like you. It’s ok that not everyone likes you and you aren’t required to like everyone either.
Look at what you said. Remember how you felt while you were typing this? All of what you said is still there, it never left. One person made a comment that you didn’t like and it put you in crisis. You left the community over this. Your fear of abandonment and rejection fueled this. It lied to you and told you that everyone hates you. They don’t, just one person made that comment. Everyone else who showed you love are still there and still love you. You left them before anyone else could hurt you.