I’m not doing this anymore. Im fed up with living. I’m fed up with living this damn torturous life.
Every night I have nightmares and ptsd. I lose sleep and I am constantly reminded of my pain
I’m left in the dirt by people I’ve trusted, people I’ve respect and people I’ve known for years. I’m just some fucking scapegoat for them to put their misery and pain onto (yes this is more than one)
IM SICK OF IT ALL.
Maybe I’ve fucking lost my mind.
But I’m not staying another day to take more pain.
God will not accept me in heaven , so I’m going to hell. Fine. I don’t care. Let the damn Satan take me.
There’s no hope to my future. Nothing at all.
I’m so angry at myself.
I’m so angry at the world.
I’m angry at people I’ve trusted.
I’m angry at people who’ve abused me.
I’m going to die.