This is more of a quick run-down, than anything, I suppose. Also, I wasn’t quite sure whether to label this as Support or Journal, lol
My best friend is someone very dear to me, obviously. And he’s dealing with a lot, to the point he became severely suicidal. I talked him down from ending it all, just now. He made a promise, to text me once he comes back from school. And I choose to believe that, but i’m still wary. He lives in an emotional abusive household and under the belief that no one cares for him, at all. So all I can do, is wait until his school will supposedly be over in a few hours. And as much as it pains me, that if he does chooses to break the promise and go through with it; I did all I could. I was there for him and tried my best.
That’s a way of thinking I learned over the years. I did the best I could for him. Of course that doesn’t mean, I wouldn’t care. I care a lot, but I also need to remind myself of the fact I did my everything I could’ve done.
And on the brighter side, I can deal with these things a lot better than I did a year ago. I’ve dealt with talking friends down from suicide before. And I would cry, panic and shake immediately to the point I needed a break from my own phone and even came to hate the sight of it. But even now, i’m still calm and not panicking. I think that’s a major improvement :]
If someone ended up reading this; thank you!