Recently my physical health has been better, I got special vitamin pills and I have taken them for the past week, I have not passed out or thrown up since due to my physical health.
I have how ever self harmed some days but not everyday, going deeper, further, bigger cuts…
I had to put a bandage on my arm due to it, but I have removed the bandage and started cutting again today, I do not know what to do but harm myself. (I do only cut my left arm)
A few days ago I tried to take another overdose but I failed, I did how ever pass out and throw up during this event, one of my friends was there to be in a vc with me on discord to make sure I was doing okay, I turned my camera on so they could see me, however one part of me wants to do it again, this was my second overdose attempt in 1-2 weeks.
I have also lost another friend who was my friend for quite a while, they just blocked me when we had a casual conversation just a few days prior, this hit me severly and my mental health is not doing well because of it, ontop of all the other things that have happened recently with me losing friends and a community which I called home for quite a few years.
Thank you for reading, I hope you have a great day!